Washington DC

Well Im in DC now until December 17. I went and explored the main campus and picked up my AU ID. Not as many pretty girls up here, but it doesnt really matter, I doubt Ill have much time to flirt. My apartment and roommate look like theyll work out. The only 2 other things I have to worry about are my classes and my internship. I have to figure out the Metro very quickly.

back to school

Well the end of August is finally coming and Im having tons of fun, but its coming to an end. I just wish I could have another month of summer. Ive had lots of surprises this summer, and met lots of interesting people, driven all over Texas and through New Mexico and Colorado. Helped 4 friends and one brother move. Ive read plenty, learned tons of computer stuff. I feel really good about life, I know where I want to get to and what I want in life. I have lots of great music to listen to and absorb.
Washington DC should bring its own surprises and lessons. Im not excited about living there, and I hold no expectations. I know my time up there will fly by and itll be Christmas in no time and then ill be in Mexico if everything goes to plan. Im sure Ill have a lot of free time for reading and learning new skills as I wont have a tv in DC, but ill be fine with my powerbook and an internet connection. I do love the internet, I can find just about anything I want to learn about or listen to or watch anything.

software

Ive been surprised recently with the amazing products that Google and Yahoo! have been giving away for free. Google's desktop search and Picasa, their photo management software are very formidable pieces of software for windows. Yahoo!s recent purchase and release of Konfabulator (www.konfabulator.com) has brought widgets (mini desktop applications) to windows.
Its nice to see computer owners gaining more control over their machines. The era of 'netizen' is dawning with so many people writing their own blogs. I recently started my own as you can see. Its a great way to learn about your friends and family. How they think, what concerns them, it will ultimately give us a better understanding of ourselves and each other. Maybe the internet will finally do what religion has been trying to do for eons. Bring people together and build a community of respect for each others beliefs and thoughts and promote understanding and tolerance.

discovering music you already own

Its lots of fun to go back through old CD cases and listen to CDs youve owned for a while and find that you have lots of great music that you didnt appreciate when you first got the cd. My problem was that I would just listen to the big singles and add those to iTunes.
Its amazing what music does for so many of us. It gives a release of pressure, helps us think about things in a different light or an altogether new subject. What bothers me sometimes is how some artists will use their popularity to brainwash so many people to bring them to their side, and those people dont even really think about how they feel about the topic, sometimes it isnt the artists fault and who can blame them for trying to bring attention to something, I just dont have much respect for people who cant think for themselves or develop their own opinions.

priorities

Why is it that for so much energy we expound upon trying to not feel alone we end up feeling further apart from another or even the things we think we need or want. We seem to search for another being or things to fill a void in our lives to complete us. Some people seem to find their soulmate, being so young I wonder if I should actively search for my soulmate or let fate carry me through life. Fate is a funny thing, to an extent we can make our own but so much is just meant to happen to us because of Karma or something else To me it seems that we should surrender ourselves to God everyday. Humility should be a part of our lives everyday.

The Future

All too often I find myself thinking about my future. Wondering about getting into Law School, making a living, whether I know my future wife or if Im still waiting to meet her, what our children will look like and what that adventure will bring to my life. I keep having to plan every 5-6 months of my life to make sure I have planty of "doors" open to me in the future. Im almost confused as to whats really important to me right now. I love to party, but I know that I have to keep my eye on my goals and keep my head straight to get the things I want. The end of school will not come soon enough, but that will bring its own new set of problems. The one thing I really want in life is a family of my own, to watch my children grow up and provide them with even more than my parents gave me. Im sure God will lead me through this adventure called life and Ill end up with more good memories than bad ones, and Ill have plenty of "good pictures in my head to take with me" (to make an allusiion to 'Meet Joe Black').

My senior pic from 2002

growing up

time has sped up so much since senior year of high school. Its amazing how fast years go by now. So many great things happening to me and my friends as we grow into men, go through college and relationships with women. Im glad Im not afraid of growing old like so many people seem to be. Another day another year is just another experience to be had in this life. The trick is that for as much as we try to control our lives, its important to let go of a lot of control to really live and have great memories.

human relationships

It is interesting to look at human relationships as we grow older. The problems we create for ourselves, seeming to make things become more complicated by not making the right decisions. We lie to ourselves, our family and friends to try and get things we want but usually just end up hurting ourselves or loved ones or both. Also we as a society spend so much time lusting after the things we dont have, men thousands of years ago learned that lust can be a very dangerous thing and can destroy or help us waste our short lives leaving us with a life of unfufillment. We look for other people to try and fill voids in our lives and souls, when what will make us feel better is to put everything we are into another person who will do the reciprocal. All too often we let our animal instincts rule us and they get us into positions we dont want to be in. My philosophy is to not take anything too seriously, not to let any woman I get involved with carry any false hopes about me. I like to keep things simple by telling the truth and to always mean what I say. I know how it feels to have my heart broken and I wish it on no one else. Love life and cherish every moment.