A hopeless romantic

What does it mean to be a romantic?  What is it like to be one?  Is it healthy or wise to be in love with love?  
I think that being a romantic consists of appreciating each day, stopping to smell the roses so to say.  Its about finding the beauty in life, appreciating how mysterious the universe is from the creation of a star and its solar system down to watching a leaf float on the air as it falls from its branch.  
What would you do for love?
People do lots of crazy things for love. The two extremes seem to be self destruction and the other (which I prefer) is self realization.  
Self Realization you ask...
What I mean by that is the possibility of finding your purpose in life, raison d'etre.  I think that too many people feel that their job is supposed to be their calling in life.  I propose a different idea of a life calling.  I realized that what I want is a family of my own. I want to be a husband and a father.  (Not immediately mind you) In due time of course.  But I realized that there are few things more beautiful than life, than being responsible for another person.  It seems that most people today being responsible for another being is horribly terrifying to them.  I guess I just want to be apart of something more than just myself. Not because I feel alone in the universe.  I just think that loving someone else more than yourself is the only real way to be happy.

wierd dream and doubts

I feel strange today.  I got 7 hours of sleep, but it was my dream this morning that has put in a bit of a funk.  It was a sequal to a dream I had several weeks ago in which I dreamt that I got a girl pregnant and we decided to have it and raise it ourselves. And this morning it got really depressing cause her family moved her away from me cause they didnt think I was capable of being a good father or they were still mad at me for getting their daughter pregnant.  Im not sure what a dream like that is supposed to mean to a 22 year old guy. Maybe I have some feeling in the back of my mind that Im frustrated about not being in full control of my own life, and trying to deal with the new kinds of responsibilities that are being placed on me and what Im taking on for myself.  Maybe I need to take some days for myself after I finish this semester and ponder my life and get things in perspective.  I thought I had a pretty good handle on my life, but it seems that wasnt the case.  Growing up is a bitch.  Can you remember what it was like to be seven and to be oblivious to the problems in the world?

hmmmm

So Im down to the last 9 days of school this semester.  Im so tired, so drained. This semester has been a mix of fun and pain.  Summer cant get here soon enough for me. I have lots to do and many places to go this summer, I just want to be able to enjoy myself and deal with as few problems as possible. I think that I need my personal space again and a good bit of Tender, Loving, care.  It'll be good to spend time with my friends again.  At least its warm again, if it was cold I would really be miserable.  I need some time to unwind and enoy the silence and a quiet mind and a good nights sleep. I hope everyone else is having a decent enough time these days.  I think I need to stop reading the world news, it depresses me too much lately.